Thursday, February 10, 2005

What a week

what a month really. Life has been nonstop since Christmas and seems to be picking up speed each day. I think I need a vacation because I've been stressed and irritable ALL week long. I think that I'm really tired and have lost all sense of routine because (suprise!) there hasn't been one.

I'm not sure what happened to January, but my February's spent and March is half planned. There seems to be no "slow" month in the church world, and while that's great it wears me out. Maybe once I've been somewhere a full year life will get better and I'll have a better handle on a schedule.

I ask for your prayers. Things aren't turning out like I thought they might and that's frustrating and exhausting and has been wreaking havoc on my spiritual life as well as work life. I'm praying for April. I hope it comes quickly. This is probably why I've been praying for patience since November.

And then there's my social life. While there is a glimmer of hope for it, i realize that it has to be MY initiative and that's scary. What if people don't like me?

And then there's the fact of my singleness... and perhaps it's because valentine's day is near by and I'm single, or maybe it's because God's trying to tell me marriage isn't for me and I won't give it up.

Sorry to be so depressing, but everyone needs to complain sometimes right?

I think that I need a few days off where I don't do anything but sleep and read my Bible and catch up on "me time," but I don't know if that will happen... but oh well, that's life, right?